stella marie

I had promised myself that this semester would be all about new beginnings. But once I got here, I got sucked into my old habits of Purchase life. Its time I start holding up to the promises I made, and work on improving my life. I love it here, I do, but some things need to change. And some people need to be shifted around.

I miss you and you haven’t even left yet.

We will see each other soon! I’ll make sure of it. (ps ^best response ever!)

I hate being sentimental…

I have been waiting for this, for weeks. Break usually feels like pulling teeth, never ending and painful. But this break was surprisingly pleasant and fast. And now I am sitting in my room, nothing packed, for the last night for the next four months. The next time I will be here I will probably need my air conditioner, and the kitties will be back in PA. That is one thing I will really miss, Pippie. She’s so sweet and she finally found a safe place to sleep where the other cats wont bother her (my room). Tomorrow, I have to wake up during normal people hours so that I can pack up, hang out with my mom for a little while, and drive the boring road down to Purchase. I’m excited to be back with my friends, but at the same time I am sad to leave the town kids behind again, and I am kinda nervous about this semester. I’m sure it will be fine. I have a really good feeling about it. 2012 will bring good things for me, I can feel it. Either way, I am taking 6 classes - 21 credits, and I have all of these non-school related things I’d like to do. I want to get a job, I want to do yoga once or twice a week, and I want to set aside time for me to be creative, I hate that my life has become so left side of the brain. I will be very busy and very tired. But hopefully it will all be good. This, right now, is the deep breath before the plunge, the moment in time when everything is calm, slow, and still. Soon I will be in a blurry daze of work and maintaining a social life. Well, here goes nothing.

See why I’m nervous? It’ll be worth it.