stella marie

I am tired of always being left out of things. I feel like a 5 year old saying this. But really, I have been in the school for almost 2 full years now, I have made a decent number of friends, but for whatever reason, none of them seem to want me around. I will call or text or IM and they will tell me they are busy doing this or that. But then they will slip up, they will post it on facebook or talk about it in conversation in class, and it becomes really clear that I was avoided on purpose. Why not just be honest with me and tell me you don’t want me around? Instead of pretending we are still friends and that it saddens you that we don’t hang out anymore. I am so tired of fake people. It is the most unbearable thing in the world. Stop lying to me, if you don’t want me in your life, then you don’t deserve to be in mine.